Day 13 (August 18, 2012)

So, today was a horrible cheat kind of day, I did well in the morning, but DH called on his way home from work saying we were going to Tomi's for dinner which is my favorite Chinese restaurant. there is absolutely nothing I could have possibly ordered that would have been a better option aside from not going at all. SO I decided I was going to moderate how much I was going to actually eat.

Brunch: 1 protein pancake with savory spices and enough water to thin it completely and made it like a tortilla, then added 3 scrambled eggs, 2T ham, and 1 handful of shredded manchego cheese

appetizer: DH and I shared an order of flash fried zucchini with a ginger sweet and sour sauce.

Dinner: flash fried chicken in a spicy sauce with broccoli, bamboo, onions, zucchini, and carrots and about 1/2 cup of rice in total

Dessert, (5oz in total) half greek yogurt vanilla honey frozen yogurt and 1/2 pomegranate sorbet from tcby topped with a small spoonful of honey granola.

Snack 2 squares of Dagoba chili and coco nib chocolate. I will take a picture so you can see the bar that I am still working on and have been for about a week now.

*Side tip: if you are using any kind of cheese, try to stay away from pre shredded and shred your own, chemicals and starches must be used to keep your cheese from sticking together when buying it preshredded. Not by a whole lot, but the calories do end up and can effect you if you are trying to stay away from the excess starches.*

Yes I cheated. I felt miserable afterward, but when my husband asked me all I could think was hell yeah I am going to cheat! I haven't had Tomis since before my daughter was born. AND I thought since I am cheating I am having ice cream too! so yeah it was bad.

When we went out to dinner, obviously everything smelled amazing. DH and I split in half the appetizer. my portion I split in half so technically I only ate a quarter of it. While I was eating, even though it was indeed tasty. I felt guilty. Not guilty enough to not still tell myself I was going to eat ice cream, but still I felt it. Then when I was eating dinner I found I was eating and wishing there were more vegetable in it. While the sauce was incredible I could taste heavily the sweetness in it from sugar. I only ate half and mostly the veggies,and only half the rice. I gave the rest to the ball and chain and my son.

then we went for a walk, it was soo nice outside and they had live music, when we walked by them we found the tcby and it was over. I had to, I really wish I woulda had the will power to just not walk in the store at all. I tasted only 3 flavors i thought I would like, the samples i made as small as I could get them and I literally just licked to taste and gave the rest to DH. I picked the two I wanted and literally just added a glop of each and then sprinkled on some granola, it came out to just under 5 oz, that is how they get you. they charge by the oz, but then they don't allow you to scoop out what you want, they just have it in a machine that dispenses too much and too fast. the containers are also ridiculously huge. when I looked in my cup, i felt like i had nothing in their smallest cup, yet it still weighed what it did.

When I got home I spent more time pumping and after a while i ate 2 more pieces of the chocolate. On a bright note, it has taken me more than a week and I still have 2 more pieces left over from what was a tiny bar to begin with. I have only had the water from the dinner and I had a milk kefir later when we got home, but I know I am going to have this as small set back and need to go back to clean eating again. I am exausted and going to head out. Hope you all have a great night. Nite All!